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My Name is Shadow

2012-01-24T03:09:00.000-08:00

I have alwaysthought that the world is nothing but black

I keep onseeing myself trapped in darkness

And I can’tseem to see a ray of light

All I can dois hope and pray for a world so bright.

I kept onwalking in nothingness

Hoping tofind the end of my emptiness

All I have isthis faith I hold

To find thepath leading to the door of happiness.

Along myjourney I stumbled and fall;

I gathered myfeet in a courageous manner

To grab mysecond chance to grow and be better

To meet otherpeople who cares and to care.

However, inthis darkness I could see nothing,

I could onlyhear faint voices from afar

I startedwalking towards their direction

Slowly, thechattering and laughter becomes clearer.

Their voiceswas like a sweet melody

It waspleasing to the ear

It was myfirst time to hear such music

That got meanxious and excited.

As I gotcloser to the crowd, faint light I see

I’m happy forat last I saw light

My eyesglittered with tears of joy

When everyonegathered around and welcomed me.

Ah, what awonderful feeling

To now andfeel that you belong

I could onlywish for this moment would never end

But,unknowingly, the light slowly faded to darkness.

Once again,my whole world was embraced by darkness

Stricken byfear, I run aimlessly in search for everyone

Tears startedto fall because of fear and seclusion

I’m all alonenow in the midst of oblivion.

I shouted forhelp but no one seems to hear

From adistance I saw a light and tried to walk towards it

However myfeet got stuck and I can’t take a step

Something iskeeping me from moving forward, I wonder what it is.

SENDONG

2012-01-12T21:19:00.000-08:00

The sun was smiling brightly at you.

Your sky was painted in blue.

Everything was fine; nothing seems to go wrong.

Your world was in perfect harmony.

Chaos was far, only peace lingers as you sleep

But no one told you that nightmare would visit you

And angel of death would paint your blue sky with black

Blink of an eye, your perfect world was washed away byflooded tears

Right in your eyes, the life of your love slowly driftedaway

Allthat’s left were relics of hurricane heart

Filled with remnants of pains and debris of memories

From afar I could hear your sobs of pain

Your cries is echoing from the depth of my soul

I want to spread my wings to comfort you,

To embrace and give you warmth and sing a lullaby to easeyour pain

But my words aren’t enough to heal your wounds

Mysongs couldn’t erase the scars from your pain

For it will remain forever.

I am an Orphan

2011-11-09T22:13:00.000-08:00

There are so many people surrounding me

But I keep on asking myself why I feel so lonely

I have friends, parents and siblings

Shouldn’t I feel so blessed and lucky?

I don’t understand the reason why I feel so miserable

I act cool and look as if I don’t care

But inside thousand of daggers are piercing my heart

When reality strikes that I only hold a family in mere name.

I often hear people say I have a wonderful family

I’ll faintly smile in reply for I don’t know if I should be happy

Because they have no slightest idea how pathetic we are

How we try to cover our frustrations with smiles and laughter.

I can’t figure out if I’m an orphan or not

When strangers’ eyes are watching true meaning of family we became

However when the curtain’s down our family is eaten by darkness

In there, smiles and laughter becomes bitter and everyone bickers.

When darkness consumes everyone’s hearts I run into my room

To run and hide into the safe haven I called

To run and hide into a place where it’s far from doom

In there, I could cry all I want until I get tired and fall asleep.

I have no idea when did our family fell apart

Or should I wonder if we ever did became one

Well, either way, I know I’ll always feel lonely

For I have been destined to become an orphan for some reasons.

MY REFUSAL

2011-11-09T22:11:00.000-08:00

I refuse to concede defeat

I always seek to be the best

No matter how many times I fail

My pride will always prevail.

I never taught that one day I would admit

The imperfection that I hold

When You mend me from blindness

And You saved me from darkness.

Once in a while I may descend into oblivion

But Thy love pulled me to the radiance

Now, I can see the world in bright insignia

When I made Thee the heart of my existence.

What is important

2011-06-08T19:22:00.000-07:00

I keep on wondering what is the most important thing in this world that makes a person happy. The type of happiness that is everlasting. The type of happiness that makes anyone feel contented and satisfied. Everyday I hear slashes of words between people about money or people talking about money. What is so important in money? Will it give security and happiness to each one of us? Money...money....money. I recognize that money has become a necessity to people however that doesn't mean it's the whole world. The more I hear people talk about money the more I hated it. Everyone seems making money as the center of their world or worst their "god." Many may not realized it we are clinging into money as it's the most important thing in this world. And the more people clings into it the more I ask my self if I should also cling into it. But when I stumble with the question "will it make you happy and satisfied?" Then I'd hide in my shell like a snail for protection. All I want in this simple life of mine is to find my purpose in life. To really find the most important thing that I want to do that will give me satisfaction and happiness. The want...the motivation...the thing that drives me to let me feel that I am alive, really living. Currently, their is something that has sparked my interest but it seems impossible for me. It sparked my interest for the first time in my life. It's as if it's what I want in life. But maybe it's all a dream, an impossible dream. I really wonder why did I discover it so late. I guess all that is left in me is wonder. Wonder if I'd be able to reach. Wonder if it will come true. Wonder if it is possible. wonders....wonders...wonders.

Envy

2011-06-08T01:22:00.000-07:00

As I watch people who are busy everyday
I can't help asking myself why I am not like them.
I envy them for they know what they want in life
Unlike me, I have nothing to do at all.
I feel that I am wasting my life for keeping myself idle
I feel like life is so boring, nothing excites me.
I envy people for they all have the reason in living
And as for me, I have none.
To be able to do things on my own
It seems like I am in my own little world, my comfort zone.
Every time I tried to get away from it
People around me seems pulling me back to my own little world.
Forcing me to follow in their own flow
Everything seems empty.
I felt empty in me, no motivation in doing things
I felt empty for not knowing what I want to do with my life.
I want to find it; experience what others experienced.
The feeling of joy when someone finally found his/her purpose.
I am currently struggling in solving the hardest math problem in my life
And the answer seems impossible to find.
All I can do now is to envy people for giving their best
And achieving what they want in the end.
Envy is all I have now for I have nothing.
I am just an empty vessel living for the sake of living.

Finding Love in the Midst of Misery

2010-10-03T22:06:00.000-07:00

Chapter 1

“Aaaaaaahhhhh! Noooo! Please Don’t! No! Aaaaaahhhhhh!”
In the midst of a quiet and solemn night in XXX convent, the nuns were awakened by a loud scream. Everyone woke up and wondered where the scream came from. The mother superior got up to investigate the event. As she towards the source of this commotion she followed the sound of a girl crying; it led her to the room where Aria resides. She went in and witnessed the poor girl in one corner of the room near her bed crying out loud. She was bathed with cold sweat. She must have had a bad dream again. What a poor girl, she thought. She approached her and hugged her. “Hush, don’t cry any longer. No one will harm you, you’re safe here. Shhh….”

Aria is humming a melody. This song, she hums this every time she’s scared to calm herself. While humming she starts to relax. The nun inquired, “Did you have had a bad dream again?”
“Sister I’m scared. What if…what if they find me here? Sister… Sister… I… I’m scared…really scared!” She started crying again.

“Hush, don’t be scared. You’re safe here. They won’t find you here. So go back to sleep. I’ll be here until you fall asleep.” She nodded once and lay down. “Thank you.” She closed her eyes and fall asleep after a couple of minutes. “She must have been tired with all the crying. What a poor angel.” She sighed. Yes, Aria has an angelic face. When she’s asleep she so peaceful but no one knows that she is suffering a trauma.
As she gazed outside, the rain started to pour. The sky must have pitied this poor little girl. It cried in her stead. It’s raining so hard just like the night she arrived here. She could still remember when a knocked in the convent’s door caught their attention. When she opened it she saw a girl with the face of an angel with long black straight-haired girl in her teenage year drenched wet in rain and asked, “Are you willing to accept me and let me take refuge?” But there is something in her eyes. She doesn’t know what it is. It is fear, pain, loneliness or anger she saw. She couldn’t quite figure it out. “Of course, please come in. You can stay here as long as you want.” The nun let her in. “Thank you.”

She wondered how come a girl of her age in the middle of the night would come knocking at our door but I asked no further. I could feel that there is a reason as to why she came here. None from the convent had an idea that something terrible happened to her. At first glance, there was no sign that she is deeply hurt or trauma; that she is suffering so much inside. You can’t see the pain even in her eyes. If she’s an actress then she’s a pro. It must have taken a lot of courage to put a strong front. However every night everyone will be awakened with screams of fear. It was a bit later we found out that she was raped by three men and luckily escaped from their hands. If not she’d be dead now.

According to her, the three rapists were still out looking for her to silence her. She got scared that she ran away without her family’s knowledge. She has no idea where to go and her feet took her to convent XXX. She doesn’t understand herself as to why but she felt safe when she set her foot here she said.

It has been a year since she came here. In her first month of stay, she was quiet and keeps her distance to everyone but eventually she started to open up to others but not with males. Because of the event she eventually developed fear of men. She will shiver in fear and a cold sweat will bathed her. However, it could be seen that she is a bright girl and has a gift in music. She has a beautiful voice and writes songs. She is a gift sent from heaven. It is such a waste that some men has tainted this girls beautiful melody. They covered her colorful and bright world with dark clouds. How I wished that she’ll be able to move on her life.

On the other side of the world…

The sound of music is so loud that matches the beat of my heart. It’s pounding crazily. It must be the result of too much consumption of alcohol. Or it might be because of the girl I’m frolicking. She’s so beautiful. What do you expect from an international model? Hmmmnnnn. I want to eat her alive, right here and right now. However, there are too many people here. It might create a scandal and surely my father will kill me. I took her to my condo unit to satisfy my desire.

“’Babe, you’re so beautiful. You’re driving me crazy.” She smiled before she kissed me again. I started to kiss her neck. “Babe, I have something to tell you.” I acted as if heard nothing and continue kissing her.

“Babe, wait!” “Later.” I hungrily kissed her. I don’t care what she wants to tell me. I don’t want to hear it right now. I just want to have fun.

“Babe wait…I said stop!” She’s shouting now. I stopped kissing.

“Damn! What? Can’t we talk about it later?” I asked.

“We have to talk, now. It’s important.” I sighed then asked, “About what?”

“I’m leaving soon for work.”

“When and where?”

“Two days from now and U.S.”

“How long?”

“Five…”

“Five months? It’s not that long. It’s fine.” I started kissing her but she jerked away. “No.”

“Now what?!” I’m getting annoyed now.

“It’s not five months but five years.”

“Don’t worry babe I’ll wait for you here.” I look at her and saw her face brightens. I know that is what she wanted to hear from me. I then added, laughing, “Are you crazy? You think I’m going to say that? Waiting for you that long? That’s completely insane! I’m going to find other woman prettier and better than you in bed. I’m not the faithful type Abigail and you know that.” Her face turned red and slapped me. “Oww, Bitch!”
She took a deep breath and said, “You’re such a jerk. One day you’ll find your match. Someone who’ll make your knees weak and will make you look like a speechless idiot. I just can’t wait for that day and when that day comes I will laugh at you!”

I sarcastically smiled and shrugged. “If that day will come.” She pushed me away and I watched her go. I said to myself, “A match huh? I wonder if that person exists. Woohh!” I laughed out loud as if I’m being tickled. Cupid, Cupid you’re such a lousy archer. I can easily dodge your arrows.” Then my phone rang.

To be continued....

Candle Light

2009-12-29T03:24:00.000-08:00

I was trapped in the midst of nowhere
Everything is dark and all I see is my fear
I slowly walked with no particular destination
All I have is me and my religion.

During the darkest moments of my life,
When everything seems not right,
I whispered a prayer for courage to fight
In an instant You gave me light.

Tears had blinded me , I'm unable to se
But never did I lose to fear,
It's all because Your love has strengthen me
Even if my life is taken away by spear.

My life is always in a mess;
I am jailed, drowned in darkness
But You constantly embrace me with Thy love
Now and forever I can fly freely like a dove.

You lighted my way in a thousand ways
And You gave me a reason to stay
Until the day You come for me
I'll come home with You in glee.

Gods Light

2009-08-23T22:51:00.000-07:00

The light descending from the sky
Is telling me that you are might;
Every time I’m hurt you send me love through the sun
With Your love I feel warmth and instantly the pain is gone.

The clouds white as the snow conveys paradise.
It makes me wish that I am with You.
I wonder if I could still feel pain.
I wonder if I could smile there again.

In times darkness consumes me while in pain.
With the light you give I see eases the pain.
How I wish the night never ascends;
Only the light I wish to gain.

I lift up my hands in plea to the Almighty
To take me with Thee.
Take me to Your paradise where there is no flood of tears.
Take me in Thy arms where fears disappear.

I beg You to take me with You
For pain and fears never flew;
For only you could give me comfort
That gives me happiness and contentedness.

Calling U

2009-06-22T02:16:00.000-07:00

Everyday…
I’ve been struggling to reach out
And yet no one noticed.
I pray that one day you will look back
And yet no one dared.
I keep on trying to please everyone
And yet no one responded.

Night by night…
I call out your name,
Begging to save me in this place.
I shout for help
But only my echo answered.
Can’t you hear it?
The voice within my heart is screaming for help.
Calling for someone to hear it;
Kept on waiting for a single reply.

How long do I have to wait?
How long do I keep on calling?
Just for you to notice the emptiness of my heart?
How many liters of tears do I need to cry?
For just a glimpse of your eyes?
How can you smile brightly?
While I’m here suffering; jailed in the darkness?

When will you ever notice me?
I’m losing hope like a candle.
How painful, can’t you feel it?
I’m alone and I need someone to reach out a hand
And help me stand up.
I’ve stumbled many times
That I don’t have any strength left to stand.
I need someone to help me, to guide me.
Anyone, is there anyone of you to help me?

Lonely, Sad and Cold…
That is what I am feeling right now.
Death is even better than this.
Death is even better than being lonely, empty.
Death is even better that not to be able to smile.
Death is even better than being left alone in the midst of sorrow.
Death is even better than being with everyone but not being part of it.

My hands are reaching for you
And yet you never tried to reach it.
I’m getting weaker day by day.
No more strength.
No more hopes left.
I guess waiting for death is the best.

To Whom I Belong

2009-03-23T06:29:00.000-07:00

Day by day I smile without worries
I always look forward of seeing your face
That gentle smile that lighten up my day;
It gives courage to a weakling like me.

From afar I could only wish
That one day you’d set your eyes on me
Forever, I’ll patiently wait for that time to come
For the moment to feel your sweet embrace
For the time when your lips touches to mine.

Night by night I dream of you
I feel contented when you say “I love you”
The warm hands of yours as you hole me tight
It gives comfort as I sleep.

From afar I could only wish
That one day you’d set your eyes on me
Forever, I’ll patiently wait for that time to come
For the moment to feel your sweet embrace
For the time when your lips touches to mine.

To hold you, to kiss you
To want you, to love you
That is all I longed for
Because long before this heart of mine is already yours.

2009-01-16T14:28:00.000-08:00

My Greatest Friend

2009-01-13T20:06:00.000-08:00

I have been under pressure since before.
Before, it has been the prime reason to fight
But today, it has become the prime hindrance in giving my all.
It feels like it's pushing me to edge till I fall.

I tried to ignore it
However, it is like a seed.
The more I ignore, the more it grows.
It is absorbing my strength like water.

It was my greatest strength in moving forward
But also it is my greatest weakness I haven't overcome.
I always ask Him to help me overcome it;
Begging in tears, kneeling down for help.

I have been waiting for His response
while taking the journey of my life.
But when the day comes that He answers
I am in great confusion.

I know He had come to help
But I don't how to do it.
I am scared in moving on.
I am too weak to fight on.

When everyone seems to turn their backs on me.
When everyone seems deaf to hear my sobs.
When it seems that I am alone in the world
He came to reach out His hand.

He had prove once again that He loves me
Though I am not a perfect child.
He let me grow on my own
Yet He never leave me.

He has always on my side while others don't.
He laughs with me when I laugh while others are pretentious.
He smiles when I am happy while others don't care.
He embraces me when I cry while others are numb.

He always wipes away my tears
And never leaves me alone.
He is the one understands me the most
while everyone pretends to know me.

He is always with me
And I feel that I am not alone.
He is a good listener
And my greatest friend, GOD.

my dilemma

2009-01-09T23:37:00.000-08:00

These days i keep on wondering,
keep on asking myself
is there something wrong?
this isn't what the way i am.

i have kept silent
i have always set it aside
i never give my self a chance
to have a glimpse of myself.

days have passed and i never realized
that day by day my heart grew tired
along with my body and my mind.

i tried to suppress the feelings
yet, unknowingly, i am being defeated
defeated defenselessly with my own fear
defeated defenselessly with my own tears.

everyday i always search for the answers
everyday i am in the midst of journey
in midst of nothingness, how lonely
in midst of nowhere, how scary.

right now, i needed someone to lean on
but when i look around i realized that their is no one
i realized that i am alone in this crowd
i have no one to cry on.

today til the end of tomorrow
i will keep on searching
i will always be alone
i will always be stuck in my heart's darkness
i will always wait for the light.

To You

2008-12-11T19:39:00.000-08:00

The beautiful sky
makes me what to fly.
I want to touch the clouds
and gets the stars and be proud.
I see the sky so blue
and I am wondering where are you.

I want to offer you the stars, the clouds.
I want to see your smile.
That I haven’t seen in a while
I want to hear you laugh out loud.

The cold wind makes me shiver.
It reminds me of your warm embrace;
the warmth of your love, what a grace.
The twinkling stars in the sky are like your pretty eyes.
The winds song is like your astonishing voice.
Your voice, it’s a beautiful music that I’ve long to hear.
Your arms, it is where I feel safe.

I have been longing for you in this depth of loneliness.
I want to fly like an eagle, strong and free.
I want to cross the ocean and be with you.
In this midst of despair I seek for an arm to lean on.
I have been waiting for you to come
so that this pain would be gone
and to fill this emptiness.

My Agony

2008-12-06T17:41:00.000-08:00

It has been a while since I updated this blog. I have wanted to post new poems however; it wasn't easy for me to do so. Lot of things is going in and out in my mind these days. I am not sure how and when it started, maybe...long time ago.

Since I was a kid I have live up in a totally different world to others. I don't know how but I can just feel it. I have this feeling that I am so different from them. I have this feeling that I am living in a different persona. Everyone around me sees me as one of them. They don't see me differently. I just don't why. I sometimes wonder if I am exerting a different aura. People just entrust me such big responsibilities that I am not used to. They are expecting a leader that has the capability to lead people. But those are all false. I don’t even see my self as a worthy individual but why is it that others see me differently. It’s kind of frustrating. Isn’t it too much?

People around me is expecting too much from me. Living up in the world full of pressures and expectations is not that easy. Ever since I was a kid, I have accepted this pressures and expectations, full of willingness; accepting it as a challenge. I live up according to everyone’s expectations.

Carrying the pressures and expectations in my shoulders doesn’t seem like a problem at all. But however, without me knowing that day by day their expectations had become a burden on my part. I did not expect that their will be one day that I would break their expectations. Trying my very best to live it up until I become frustrated to it and it has become my greatest weakness.

Doesn’t everyone have its choice? It is either you live according to their expectations or not. It is a choice. However, I chose to live up according to the expectations because I wanted them to be happy. Is it really the real reason? Many would say no while other would say yes. Maybe it is a yes, maybe it is a no. But on the other hand, it is what it is. I have made my decision. I thought I won’t regret it one day but the day has come that I feel like I regretted my decision. Pressures and expectations are starting to become so heavy on my part. Day by day it’s becoming so difficult on my part. It’s even hard to breath. It’s suffocating. It’s frustrating. It’s tiring. I am already tired of it.

Each day I am trying to revive the reasons why I made this decision. Each day I am trying to remember the reasons of living. But however, it is always blurred. I can’t see it clearly. I can’t remember it at all. It is really frustrating. Every night I cry out of frustrations and trying to find a way to survive is my world full of pressure.

In the night I cry but during the day with all my friends I smile, I laugh. I sometimes wonder if they could see the lonely side of me. I have been waiting and looking for someone who could see it. I have been searching for that someone. I keep on asking myself, Where are you? Can you feel my loneliness? When are you coming? Can you hear my voice calling you? I am waiting…I am just waiting for the light in this world of dark clouds.

At My Window

2008-08-14T18:31:00.000-07:00

I stand by the window; I could feel the cold wind
As it touches my delicate skin.
I shivered; it’s cold like my heart.
I look at the sky; like me, it’s lonely, sad.
The tears are falling, not from my eyes; from the clouds.
Yes, the sky is crying; it cried for me.
It must have felt my loneliness.
It must have felt my sorrows, my sadness.

In the window while looking at the sky
I asked my self why I feel so lonely.
I don’t know why I felt so empty.
I don’t know; I want to cry.
I must have missed something.
Right, something is missing.
A part of me is lost.
I can’t find it and I don’t know what it is.

From the window, I could see people walked by.
I wonder if they could feel my loneliness.
It seems that they don’t.
Yes, they can’t feel my loneliness, my sadness.
Are they numb? Or am I just different?
Ah, I could see they are happy, unlike me.
Their eyes are smiling, laughing.
I wonder if I’ll be able to smile like them.
I wonder if I’ll be able to laugh out loud.
I wonder if the sun will come smiling at me after the rain.
I wonder, just wondering, if it will.

Me and My God

2008-07-20T01:57:00.000-07:00

I may be stupid
I may be an ugly duckling
I may be as thin as broom stick
But yet I have a big heart.

I may be simple
I may not be as intelligent as others
But yet I’m capable of doing everything.

Don’t judge me from what you see
Because you don’t know who’s me inside
I may not be perfect as a human
But I am made by perfect hands;
His hands, God’s Almighty hands.

I may be passive
I may be quiet
I may be secretive
But in Him I am different
In Him I am impulsive.

Please don’t judge me from what you hear;
Don’t judge me from what you see.
Don’t judge me from what you feel
Because you don’t know me well.

In Him I am everything;
In Him I am something.
In Him I am a precious gem
Because His love made me
In which you now mingle.

My Memoirs

2008-06-14T21:29:00.000-07:00

As I look at the morning sky,
I’m overwhelmed in its beauty.
It’s so calm, so blue.
It’s smiling, inviting me.

The blue sky reminds me of you.
Now, I wonder where you are.
I remembered the times we’re together.
Oh, how I wish I could turn back time.
To feel again your sweet caress
Like the wind coming from the east.

To feel your embrace,
So warm like the sun
I wanted to return in the past.
To offer you the sun and the clouds;
To hear you laugh out loud.

When the night comes embracing the sun
I could see, like your eyes, the stars are twinkling.
I could hear, like your voice, the wind is singing.

Oh, how I wish that I could fly.
Oh, how I wish I could touch the sky;
To touch the clouds,
Get the stars and be proud.

Ah, I could still remember
The feeling when I hear your voice, your laughter.
It’s like music in my ear.
Remembering the past, remembering you,
It makes me feel like crying;
Tears are starting to fall,
Wondering why you leaved me, why you’re gone.

Is It A Goodbye?

2008-02-22T02:43:00.000-08:00

That night...

It was the night that I'll never forget

And I hope that I won't regret it.

It was the night that I'm going to hear

The thing that I always fear.

Though, I want to hear the truth even if it brings me pain;

Even if it means the end.

In the morning...

When I woke up, I'm still hurting.

When I see my pillow, it reminds me the pain

And my heart aches when I see the tear stain.

I don't know if I could still smile today

For happiness seems blurred and far away.

When my heart starts to ache I just look at the world.

I could see the trees waving me hello.

Then, I look at the sky and I see the smiling sun

As if telling me that everything is fine.

The cold wind's embracing makes me shiver

And it makes me feel better.

As I walked in the road it's telling me that it's alright;

Reminding me that I'm still alive.

I saw my friends and I could hear their laughter.

When I hear their voices, I feel relieved after.

Friends are great for they make me forget

But when I'm alone the pain returns.

But. I realized that compared to last time, I'm dany fine.

For I'm already starting to accept that you'll never be mine.

Honestly, I'm still not sure if it's the end.

Because you promised that I still have you as a friend.

Inspiration

2008-01-20T02:57:00.000-08:00

In the heaven's lonely night
You came and hold me tight
You took away these loneliness
And filled my heart's emptiness.

In this lonely world
Music books were fold
But you came and strummed the guitar;
Played a music sweet as a nectar.

Day after day I see
The smile of yours so friendly
That made my day complete
And gave me reason to breathe.

Yes, my heart was broken before
And the pieces were thrown in the shore
You came and fetch it like a fisherman;
Put it together like a new one.

I admit my heart was hard as an ice;
Slowly you melt it with the fire in your eyes.
Now, I can't deny my heart's desire
Wishing that forever together, you and I.

My Provider

2007-09-29T23:21:00.000-07:00

Mind was like a sheet of paper
A white and a clean matter
I knew nothing until you came
And you wrote something.

Knowledge you fill out
Now I am proud
I have now the courage
to face the world like a sage.

I was an ignorant
Love to play and run
You planted like a peasant
Now I am a proud man.

Knowing the world’s so vast
And time runs so fast
You equip your self with things
I need in my learning.

Forever thankful to thee
Ready to walk with glee
Knowing you’re always there
Thank you, you’re a good provider.

Youth

2007-09-29T23:19:00.000-07:00

I wonder who I am
In the years to come.
I am so small;
I wonder if I’ll conquer them all.
I wonder if I’ll stand out
Among the youth in the crowd.
I want them to be proud;
I want to shout it loud.
I want to be noticed
But I don’t want them to get pest.
I want to share
But no one cares.
I want to show the world
That I have something to prove.
And I want them to know
That in me hopes overflows.
I am proud to say
That I have something to convey
That country’s future is in my hands
And I bear it in mind.
For I am a youth;
I am the country’s hope.

Mi Idolo Rizal

2007-09-29T23:16:00.000-07:00

You had shown the world
What the Filipinos can do
You gave inspiration
To those who lose hope
You have opened
The closed eyes of your fellowmen
And contributed tremendously
To the formation of our nationality.

From your writings
Filipinos are awakened
Because of you our dreams
With calm heart we’ll reach
And sincerely we thank you
Grateful that you’re proclaimed
As the foremost hero of Philippines.

Many wish to be like you
Who devotedly love our patria
You willingly sacrificed your life
To awaken the minds of the people
Of your oppressed country
Your leadership was great;
You lead us to eternity.

Despite of your sufferings
You never gave up
In your fineness exquisite spirit,
The nobility of your quixotic heart
The sentiment and aspiration
Of our nation who suffers you stand.

O, Rizal, how great you are
No other Filipino could surpass
The degree of learning of yours
Is the same as those great men;
Like Descartes on philosophy
And Reclus in geography
You’re such a blessed son
Of our motherland.

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You received praises
From your colleagues and friends
And inspired your countrymen
As well as the world
As Regidor once said
That your book was superior
If we are to compare
To the works of other Filipino authors
Your Noli Mi Tangere
Had made you immortal
Like Cervantes on his Don Quixote.

It is nice to hear
From the tongue of the foreigners
Those praises of your greatness
As Blumentritt had said
Your appearance in the world
Was like a rare comet,
Whose brilliance appears only
Every other century.

The patriotic deed of yours
We’ll glorify forever
Your sufferings shall always remember
In our hearts your memory
Will remain eternally
We shall follow your footsteps
To protect our country
Against the tyranny.

Six Years

2007-09-29T23:14:00.002-07:00

It was six years ago when I first saw you
And it was six years ago when I loved you.

It was six years ago when I started to wait;
Patiently waited with thy love so great.

It was six years ago when I started to fall
And it was when you broke my heart.

It was six years then when my heart grew tired
And finally decided to stop loving you.

Six years after when you say “I love you!”

But it was the time when I totally forgotten you.

To My Lover

2007-09-29T23:14:00.001-07:00

I have not known the world lies
From the day I opened my eyes
Only your smile I see
That brought joy to me.

It was a wonderful day of April
With the sky so blue and winds gentle breeze;
Birds were singing a song so merry
That adds music to my world so still.

About the world I knew nothing
My mind was like a clean sheet of paper
Which is pure and clear
You painted it with thy teachings.

From the day I was born I knew nothing
But you taught me everything
From crawling to walking;
From baby cries to words for communicating.

Because of thy effort and love
My hunger of knowledge you fill out
Taught me how to write and to reason out
Now, look, who am I today?

Because of thy heart so pure
Overflowing love you pour
So I’ll grow stronger like a tree
And I am thankful to thee.

Falling for You Friend

2007-09-29T23:12:00.001-07:00

I never noticed you before
How you look and how you talk
Definitely no interest at you at all
But now that I have known you more
And I am starting to fall.

Since then I started to hate this feelings I feel
Because I know it is not for real.
But the stars are starting to fall;
Meteor shower had just begun
And I know this time
I’ll cry for the second time.

I don’t know how it happen
I just woke up one morning
And realized that I’m falling for you friend.
When I realized these new bloomed feelings
I tried to hide it and I tried to resist it
But I would be a liar if I’ll deny
For the truth I am starting to love you more
More than what we have now.

Oh, how I hate the feeling like this.
But what can I do to stop this foolishness?
How could I stop my self looking at those eyes
That are like stars in heaven twinkling?
Oh, I just can’t stop staring
If I would have seen those smiles
That are so wonderful to look at.

Oh, how I wish I could stop my self loving you
But it’s getting stronger as time had pass.
Don’t you worry be happy
Because I won’t do anything that could harm you.
Just let me love you secretly
Because it’s enough for me that you are near
And I could call you dear even if it’s not for real.

Empty

2007-09-29T23:10:00.000-07:00

The sky is so blue
I feel lonely without you
The winds strong blows
Wishing we’re together and close.

As the flowers starts to bloom
In the garden’s womb
I am here alone
Feeling lost at my room.

I stared at nowhere
In its end I saw you there
I heard your voice somewhere
Whispered my name sweetly on my ear.

I walked in the middle of the forest
Hoping that I’ll find you in its breast
But I’m alone in the midst of nowhere;
Alone in the midst of despair.

How I wish you’re here
How I wish we’re together
To fill my heart’s emptiness;
To take away this loneliness.

Oh, fly high my heart’s desire
Take me into his arms
Forever I shall soar
This love of mine surely yours.

~*~Hera-IC~*~