Calling U

Everyday…
I’ve been struggling to reach out
And yet no one noticed.
I pray that one day you will look back
And yet no one dared.
I keep on trying to please everyone
And yet no one responded.

Night by night…
I call out your name,
Begging to save me in this place.
I shout for help
But only my echo answered.
Can’t you hear it?
The voice within my heart is screaming for help.
Calling for someone to hear it;
Kept on waiting for a single reply.

How long do I have to wait?
How long do I keep on calling?
Just for you to notice the emptiness of my heart?
How many liters of tears do I need to cry?
For just a glimpse of your eyes?
How can you smile brightly?
While I’m here suffering; jailed in the darkness?

When will you ever notice me?
I’m losing hope like a candle.
How painful, can’t you feel it?
I’m alone and I need someone to reach out a hand
And help me stand up.
I’ve stumbled many times
That I don’t have any strength left to stand.
I need someone to help me, to guide me.
Anyone, is there anyone of you to help me?

Lonely, Sad and Cold…
That is what I am feeling right now.
Death is even better than this.
Death is even better than being lonely, empty.
Death is even better that not to be able to smile.
Death is even better than being left alone in the midst of sorrow.
Death is even better than being with everyone but not being part of it.

My hands are reaching for you
And yet you never tried to reach it.
I’m getting weaker day by day.
No more strength.
No more hopes left.
I guess waiting for death is the best.