I am an Orphan

There are so many people surrounding me

But I keep on asking myself why I feel so lonely

I have friends, parents and siblings

Shouldn’t I feel so blessed and lucky?

I don’t understand the reason why I feel so miserable

I act cool and look as if I don’t care

But inside thousand of daggers are piercing my heart

When reality strikes that I only hold a family in mere name.

I often hear people say I have a wonderful family

I’ll faintly smile in reply for I don’t know if I should be happy

Because they have no slightest idea how pathetic we are

How we try to cover our frustrations with smiles and laughter.

I can’t figure out if I’m an orphan or not

When strangers’ eyes are watching true meaning of family we became

However when the curtain’s down our family is eaten by darkness

In there, smiles and laughter becomes bitter and everyone bickers.

When darkness consumes everyone’s hearts I run into my room

To run and hide into the safe haven I called

To run and hide into a place where it’s far from doom

In there, I could cry all I want until I get tired and fall asleep.

I have no idea when did our family fell apart

Or should I wonder if we ever did became one

Well, either way, I know I’ll always feel lonely

For I have been destined to become an orphan for some reasons.