Candle Light

I was trapped in the midst of nowhere
Everything is dark and all I see is my fear
I slowly walked with no particular destination
All I have is me and my religion.

During the darkest moments of my life,
When everything seems not right,
I whispered a prayer for courage to fight
In an instant You gave me light.

Tears had blinded me , I'm unable to se
But never did I lose to fear,
It's all because Your love has strengthen me
Even if my life is taken away by spear.

My life is always in a mess;
I am jailed, drowned in darkness
But You constantly embrace me with Thy love
Now and forever I can fly freely like a dove.

You lighted my way in a thousand ways
And You gave me a reason to stay
Until the day You come for me
I'll come home with You in glee.

Gods Light

The light descending from the sky
Is telling me that you are might;
Every time I’m hurt you send me love through the sun
With Your love I feel warmth and instantly the pain is gone.

The clouds white as the snow conveys paradise.
It makes me wish that I am with You.
I wonder if I could still feel pain.
I wonder if I could smile there again.

In times darkness consumes me while in pain.
With the light you give I see eases the pain.
How I wish the night never ascends;
Only the light I wish to gain.

I lift up my hands in plea to the Almighty
To take me with Thee.
Take me to Your paradise where there is no flood of tears.
Take me in Thy arms where fears disappear.

I beg You to take me with You
For pain and fears never flew;
For only you could give me comfort
That gives me happiness and contentedness.

Calling U

Everyday…
I’ve been struggling to reach out
And yet no one noticed.
I pray that one day you will look back
And yet no one dared.
I keep on trying to please everyone
And yet no one responded.

Night by night…
I call out your name,
Begging to save me in this place.
I shout for help
But only my echo answered.
Can’t you hear it?
The voice within my heart is screaming for help.
Calling for someone to hear it;
Kept on waiting for a single reply.

How long do I have to wait?
How long do I keep on calling?
Just for you to notice the emptiness of my heart?
How many liters of tears do I need to cry?
For just a glimpse of your eyes?
How can you smile brightly?
While I’m here suffering; jailed in the darkness?

When will you ever notice me?
I’m losing hope like a candle.
How painful, can’t you feel it?
I’m alone and I need someone to reach out a hand
And help me stand up.
I’ve stumbled many times
That I don’t have any strength left to stand.
I need someone to help me, to guide me.
Anyone, is there anyone of you to help me?

Lonely, Sad and Cold…
That is what I am feeling right now.
Death is even better than this.
Death is even better than being lonely, empty.
Death is even better that not to be able to smile.
Death is even better than being left alone in the midst of sorrow.
Death is even better than being with everyone but not being part of it.

My hands are reaching for you
And yet you never tried to reach it.
I’m getting weaker day by day.
No more strength.
No more hopes left.
I guess waiting for death is the best.

To Whom I Belong

Day by day I smile without worries
I always look forward of seeing your face
That gentle smile that lighten up my day;
It gives courage to a weakling like me.

From afar I could only wish
That one day you’d set your eyes on me
Forever, I’ll patiently wait for that time to come
For the moment to feel your sweet embrace
For the time when your lips touches to mine.

Night by night I dream of you
I feel contented when you say “I love you”
The warm hands of yours as you hole me tight
It gives comfort as I sleep.

From afar I could only wish
That one day you’d set your eyes on me
Forever, I’ll patiently wait for that time to come
For the moment to feel your sweet embrace
For the time when your lips touches to mine.

To hold you, to kiss you
To want you, to love you
That is all I longed for
Because long before this heart of mine is already yours.

My Greatest Friend

I have been under pressure since before.
Before, it has been the prime reason to fight
But today, it has become the prime hindrance in giving my all.
It feels like it's pushing me to edge till I fall.

I tried to ignore it
However, it is like a seed.
The more I ignore, the more it grows.
It is absorbing my strength like water.

It was my greatest strength in moving forward
But also it is my greatest weakness I haven't overcome.
I always ask Him to help me overcome it;
Begging in tears, kneeling down for help.

I have been waiting for His response
while taking the journey of my life.
But when the day comes that He answers
I am in great confusion.

I know He had come to help
But I don't how to do it.
I am scared in moving on.
I am too weak to fight on.

When everyone seems to turn their backs on me.
When everyone seems deaf to hear my sobs.
When it seems that I am alone in the world
He came to reach out His hand.

He had prove once again that He loves me
Though I am not a perfect child.
He let me grow on my own
Yet He never leave me.

He has always on my side while others don't.
He laughs with me when I laugh while others are pretentious.
He smiles when I am happy while others don't care.
He embraces me when I cry while others are numb.

He always wipes away my tears
And never leaves me alone.
He is the one understands me the most
while everyone pretends to know me.

He is always with me
And I feel that I am not alone.
He is a good listener
And my greatest friend, GOD.

my dilemma

These days i keep on wondering,
keep on asking myself
is there something wrong?
this isn't what the way i am.

i have kept silent
i have always set it aside
i never give my self a chance
to have a glimpse of myself.

days have passed and i never realized
that day by day my heart grew tired
along with my body and my mind.

i tried to suppress the feelings
yet, unknowingly, i am being defeated
defeated defenselessly with my own fear
defeated defenselessly with my own tears.

everyday i always search for the answers
everyday i am in the midst of journey
in midst of nothingness, how lonely
in midst of nowhere, how scary.

right now, i needed someone to lean on
but when i look around i realized that their is no one
i realized that i am alone in this crowd
i have no one to cry on.

today til the end of tomorrow
i will keep on searching
i will always be alone
i will always be stuck in my heart's darkness
i will always wait for the light.