There are so many people surrounding me
But I keep on asking myself why I feel so lonely
I have friends, parents and siblings
Shouldn’t I feel so blessed and lucky?
I don’t understand the reason why I feel so miserable
I act cool and look as if I don’t care
But inside thousand of daggers are piercing my heart
When reality strikes that I only hold a family in mere name.
I often hear people say I have a wonderful family
I’ll faintly smile in reply for I don’t know if I should be happy
Because they have no slightest idea how pathetic we are
How we try to cover our frustrations with smiles and laughter.
I can’t figure out if I’m an orphan or not
When strangers’ eyes are watching true meaning of family we became
However when the curtain’s down our family is eaten by darkness
In there, smiles and laughter becomes bitter and everyone bickers.
When darkness consumes everyone’s hearts I run into my room
To run and hide into the safe haven I called
To run and hide into a place where it’s far from doom
In there, I could cry all I want until I get tired and fall asleep.
I have no idea when did our family fell apart
Or should I wonder if we ever did became one
Well, either way, I know I’ll always feel lonely
For I have been destined to become an orphan for some reasons.
