Friday, February 15, 2013
A Song's Journey
What is with guy? I just met him yet he's this rude. I don't even know his name nor he knows mine. like i care but is that how he treats his visitors? well, i don't know if could be considered as visitor i am a complete stranger after all. maybe it is true that i am like a stray dog whom a good Samaritan who offered a shelter an food. I kind of starting to pity my self.
I think this place is good. it is a good place for soul searching but with that rude guy around i'm having my doubts. i am now tempted to go back to my past life. I think my life will be as chaotic as it was in the city if I stay here.
I sat in the bed. It's actually soft and comfortable. A little bet Hmf! I'll let him off for now because i am tired.
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
A Song's Journey: The First Meeting
"Aah...This place is so nice. It makes me forget all my troubles."
This is the place I've been looking for. A place that possesses exquisite beauty and peace that could calm my heart, mind and soul. The plain mountains painted in green, the blue sky the extends in the horizon, and the sea that seems to be talking to me. It's inviting me to play with her. It's just perfect. This place is perfect!
Every aspect of this place is far different from where I used to live. A noisy and polluted city that's full of people who knows nothing but pretend. Each one of them are pretentious and I can't stand it. So I chose to ran away from that ugly world and my foot has brought me here to a place I could say a paradise.
"Hmmmnnnn...I wonder what I'd like to do while I'm here? All I did was strolling."
It's already been 2 days since I arrive to this unknown place. I know no one in this place and luckily I met this wonderful woman living alone let me stay at her home. Of course I am not staying for free. I'm thankful that she let rent her spare room. This way I won't be a bother to her. I was so grateful to her when she open her home the first night I arrived here and had nowhere to go.
Drenched in the rain, I was in dazed and seems lost when she came to me.
"Excuse me? By any chance, are you a tourist?"
I looked up to see who's the person talking to me. She was smiling. I don't know to react. I just impulsively ran off with no plan at all. I don't know where I was going when I rode the bus and I indeed up here.
"I have been watching you from a while and it seems like you have no idea where to go where get off that bus. Do you have a place to stay?"
"No, I don't have. I didn't plan on coming here. All I want is to take a break and have a short vacation. I don't have any particular place to go and rode that bus."
"Oh my! That's so reckless of you! To think that you're a girl, it's so dangerous to go alone and to top it off you don't even know the place. Come! Come to my house. Stay there for the night and rest."
I just stared at her and smiled vaguely, "No, thank you! I'm going to wait for another bus and return to the city."
"Don't be silly! It's already dark and as I've been watching you I haven't seen you eat or something. So come with me."
"Thank you and sorry for being a bother."
She just smiled at me and said, "Don't mention it. You look sad and lonely sitting there. I thought that you were waiting for someone. Well, I haven't introduce myself yet I am Magdalena or Nanay Lena. People here call me that and what was your name?"
She's all smile. She looked like she has no problems. It makes me feel at ease. So smiled and answered, "I'm Lila."
"Oh! What a nice name."
Her house was quite a distance from the bus stop and I didn't notice how long we were walking because she kept talking to me. Telling me how nice this place is and that I should visit the treasures of the town. And then we reach her home. As she was about to put the keys to the lock, the door slammed open and a good-looking guy was standing in front of me. His gazed was weird and it seems like it displeased my presence.
"What the! You brought another stray dog again!"
What is with this guy! How could he refer me as a dog. He's so rude quite the opposite to his handsome face. Sigh. I think I want to go home.
To be continued....
The Day When I Lost You
That's the image you printed in my mind
As was close to you that I could tell all my secrets
Just like a friend whom I could trust
Laughing our hearts out like there's no tomorrow
Supporting me in all the things I do
You were my number one fan
I never felt alone and secluded when you are near
It seems like I could count on you always
And when i'll call you you'd immediately fly to where I am
I am always grateful and proud of you.
Self-centered, selfish and numb
That's the image you're printing in my mind now
I don't understand when and why this is happening
As time pass by you slowly drifted away from me
It seems like you've become another person
I can't understand you at all
I can't talk to you without getting mad
Shouting and bickering like mad dogs.
Exhausted, mad and sad
I am quiet tired of this endless arguments?
Even the tiniest things becomes a big issue
That seems like the world would end if we don't fight
I am tired of this scenario so I chose to silent
But I am not as strong you think I am
It's getting exhausting just the fact that you are near.
Dreaming, hoping and praying
Can't we return to how we use to be?
I miss the days were could just chat and laugh for simple reasons
I miss the times were we ride our bicycles from church to home
I miss the person whom I've called father/best friend
I don't know what happen It is so painful to see that I have lost you
It is even more painful than you dying in reality
And I don't even know how and why;
It hurt me so much when I see you coming home drunk
And the whole house become a battlefield of curses and swearings.
Hoping, wishing and believing
Is all I could do now
I can only hope and wish to return to how we use to be
If only you buried those memories in your heart
Maybe our relationship would still be the same
Right now I don't even know who's this person I'm calling father
I don't know this person
The father I knew was no longer here
It feels like he died and could only ressurect if he wishes to
I have no choice but bury your past image in my heart
So that I'll not end up hating you;
And if the time when you return home with the Father before me
I could shed tears of sadness and pain;
Not tears of regrets and relief.
Prayer, prayer and prayer
Is all could do right now
I have no power to turn back time
Nor do I have the power to change you
I am only a humble human and a servant of God
All I can do is to endure this pain
And wipe away these tears
And cover my face with a smile
As if everything is all right,
Believing that everything will be all right
So please let's go back to how we used to be
I beg you.
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